STUPID

I'm angry at a lot of things right now. And yes, I am taking advantage of the internet to complain about my rage and frustration and hurt and many other STUPID emotions that STUPID human beings have to experience. STUPID.

Sometimes I think anger is the only way to cope with things sometimes. Like, even when you aren't really mad or upset or fuming, you can find a STUPID way to make yourself livid and then it makes everything seem more bearable. I would so much rather be angry than bawling my eyes out. That way I can at least let lose a string of profanities and people are [semi] ok with it because I'm justified in doing. Because I'm STUPIDLY angry.

Honestly though, I don't think anyone ever really likes be angry. And it only gets you so far. It will tide you over for about 5 hours, maybe a couple days max. Once my days are up, I can guarantee I will be wallowing in a pit of self-pity and endless woe and misery. Is that a STUPID over exaggeration - no way.

And I can tell I'm really upset because normally when I'm only partially upset, I have the motivation to do something. Like watch a favorite TV show. Or go work out. Or go dance. Or laugh at other people's pain and insufficiencies. Or eat. But nope. None of that sounds appealing right now. All I want to do is curl up in a little ball and die. Or punch something STUPID. Either or. But punching does require a lot more effort. So I probably won't do that.

To top it all off - it's finals week. Thank goodness I have only two left. But I really don't care anymore. So I most likely won't study as productively as I should. Therefore, I will probably fail. So logically, I will have to retake the STUPID class.

I quit. I give up. I'm throwing in the towel. I feel STUPID.

STUPID.
STUPID.
STUPID.

Please. 

Help. 

Me.