Happy Place - Breath-taking...

You know those days where you just struggle to make it through and be kind to those around you? So you work really hard to get a smile out - and to people on the outside it looks like you are a happy, smiling individual. But really on the inside, you are a flesh eating zombie monster and all you want to do is tear heads off and scream into the night.
Yes - in case you are wondering - that was me. Today.
It was not a good scene. I feel bad for those I interacting with and I would like to make a public [by that I mean a public via blog - which doesn't reach very many people, but I do not care] apology.

I'm Sorry. 

Alright, now that that is over I can tell you that I got over it and I am doing much better. You could indeed say that I am rehabilitating from 'monster-zombie' mode. What is my solution? My medicine? My cure, you may ask?

DANCE.

There is nothing like it people. It calms my soul. I am free. Not a care in the world do I have when I dance. It requires no thought process - my body just moves to the music. It feels the beat and responds. And it's glorious. I love dance. Not the choreographed jazz, or ballet, or contemporary or any of the funky business. Nope, full on free-style, improv, make-it-up on the spot kind of stuff. To the music with the beat and the bass that just makes you lose your mind. And the music is so loud you can't hear others talk, and you can rarely hear yourself think, and your hears ring for days afterwards. 

That my friends, is my kryptonite. And I am not afraid that you know it. Because it does nothing but good for me. 

The movement of bodies to music on a hot and sweaty dance floor - is my happy place. 

Also, a great repercussion of the evening we spent at the "Revenge of the Nerds" dance party was this conversation:

(Guy walks by me a couple times over the course of a few minutes - finally comes over and whispers, WHISPERS [mind you, we are in a LOUD clubbing institution] in my ear...)

Guy: "You have a breath-taking heinie."

It took all I had to just smile and say a quiet and simple thank you. 

But what I really wanted to say to this random guy from 

Club Infinity in 

Salt Lake CIty, UT - 

"THANK YOU FOR THAT SERIOUSLY

WONDERFUL

choice of words

for a

compliment."